hey monkey!

2 months have passed...

Tue, 01 Nov 2011 23:25:14 -0400

let’s do this:

bam! these raptor claws got engaged!!!!

america got older!

friends got married in philly!

more friends got married in captiva!!!

summer came and went already and now its november. the weather is beautiful and the pups are frisky. halloween weekend went fast. but wait! there’s pictures of that!!!

growth.

Tue, 19 Jul 2011 22:55:10 -0400

it was weird to pull into the driveway after our trip and see how much has grown in the yard since we’ve been gone.

and for some reason, from this trip, i was not really ready to come home. i wanted more. we did a lot but i wasn’t ready to stop doing stuff, and seeing friends, and walking around big cities and eating and drinking and seeing the foundation that our country was made on.

don’t get me wrong, i was ready to come home and see my dogs and get back into the swing of things at work and see my friends here, but i guess maybe i’m not ready to stop seeing and doing.

but our yard has flourished while we’ve been away. my trees seem to be standing a little bit taller. and the grass is a little bit greener.

but i think the dogs missed me because butterbean is forever a ninja always sneaking up by my side and oscar can’t seem to get enough cuddle time.

and if that’s not worth coming home to, i don’t know what is.

system over-load.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:29:08 -0400

sorry for the over-load. but i just had to do it. and once i started i couldn’t stop. or figure out how to post it another day. so there we go. making up for lost time

love.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:25:00 -0400

always.

love.

party time.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:19:13 -0400

party time.

west coast is the best coast.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:09:58 -0400

west coast is the best coast.

until death do us part.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:02:00 -0400

until death do us part.

part 3.

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 23:47:49 -0400

pups break!

part 3.

more gardens and girls and boys and pups!!

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 23:39:07 -0400

more gardens and girls and boys and pups!!

gardens and girls and pups and buds.

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 23:29:51 -0400

love.

love in the ground.

gardens and girls and pups and buds.

let her cry...

Mon, 30 May 2011 23:17:00 -0400

life has been busy which is not to say that i havent been documenting it, but just that i havent been documenting it on here.

love is all around me. and its good.

people are planning weddings. and having babies. and planning for the futures. and spending time and sharing flowers and secrets and building and growing and making room. and our hearts are filling up so much that you didn’t know that you could keep loving more, but there’s still room in there and its ever-expanding.

and you realize how much you love when you lose it too. and loss has been a part of life lately too. and it makes you appreciate what you still have. and want to spend more time and grow closer and appreciate more.

and sometimes just sitting on the couch with your bud and your pups is all that you need to do for now and to breathe, and to know that everything is ok, that we are getting through it together and living together and our hearts are getting bigger for each other. that things are still able to be simple.

bang-a-rang peter...

Wed, 30 Mar 2011 21:37:40 -0400

i wont even remark and how long its been…oops i just did.

dang…things have been good. someone asked me today if i have a mantra that i wake up and live by. a great question but kind of hard to answer on the spot. but then i asked myself, how long should the answer take really? so i went with my gut.

i have been asking myself lately, does this make me happy? a question i found that i should’ve been asking myself a long time ago. i know that i have done things that don’t make me happy. and have continued to do things that don’t make me happy. and i don’t stop doing things that don’t make me happy out of fear. and it’s hard to admit when you’re scared. i think of myself as a woman and i shouldn’t be afraid of much. i should be able to stand up for myself and respect myself and know when to say when and not care what others opinions of me are. but i am also human. and let’s face it, its taken me this long to realize that if something isn’t making me happy, i shouldn’t do it. duh.

my friends are having babies. boys and girls.

i’m having daydreams of travel and remodeling and plants!

i have been crying for no reasons lately. yes, the other day i teared up while watching america’s next top model…what the fuck?

i read the last couple pages of a book called ‘running in the rain’ that is written from a dog’s narration and i’m pretty sure that it was ending with the dog telling its owner that he was running off into the woods to die and i cried.

i cry when i watch teen mom 2.

i want to cry right now.

i talked to my eucalyptus, tabebiua, and loquat tree today after the storm and told them to holdfast to their roots because i love them right where they are and i don’t want them to go anywhere. and jacob told me shingles from the carport roof were coming off in the storm and all i cared about were my trees.

w4i

Thu, 03 Feb 2011 23:49:19 -0500

me, a woman seeking inspiration.

you, a life that has begun to slow down again.

i am currently dying for some inspiration. i am longing for ideas that satisfy me. i am hoping for goals that make me go above and beyond. i am seeking balance between the calm and the noise.

i’m doing it again, and time is going by so fast and it scares me some.

:december

Tue, 04 Jan 2011 23:56:00 -0500

first christmas tree

presents for wieners.

birthdays.

sleepy monkeys on the way to west palm.

:december

:boston!

Tue, 04 Jan 2011 23:46:00 -0500

:boston!

:october

Tue, 04 Jan 2011 23:43:26 -0500

:october

‘that’s not how you use a pillow..’

Tue, 04 Jan 2011 23:06:37 -0500

‘that’s not how you use a pillow..’

inspiration

Tue, 04 Jan 2011 22:54:00 -0500

i just looked at one of my most inspiring friends blogs, www.birdlimephoto.blogspot.com, and saw her new years post.

it reminded me that a year ago this time, i too started this blog in hopes to have something to look back on. i have slacked for the last couple of months due to holiday activities, but all in all, i can say that i am happy to have kept this up for as long as i have. i didn’t really think i could do it.

maybe my new years blog resolution will be to learn more about posting pictures and what not and not just babbling along… that will be it. pictures are much more entertaining.

as for the new year, i will be welcoming friends babies!! watching friends get married!!! traveling to see my sister and friends!!! loving my house and my dogs and my bud!!! who knows what the future has in store for us, but away we go!!!

cash talks...

Fri, 19 Nov 2010 17:25:59 -0500

i am not in love with estate sales, but i am in like with them, and i’ll tell you why:

you can find some good stuff that someone once loved so much that they were only parted from it in death. what is sad about that statement is that now the departed’s beloved items are being sold by their children or siblings or parents or even worse a company that didn’t even know them. items are usually overpriced until the last day and then grandma’s family heirloom crystal vase is sold for a quarter.

i can’t help but walk through the house or duplex or apartment and wonder “how did this person die? was it in this chair that i am deciding if it is worth $25”. i went to one estate sale a while ago that im pretty sure the deceased was younger and possibly died maybe in murder or suicide? i only say this doomed info because about a week prior to stopping by the sale, there was police line tape and cops and a forensics investigator truck outside the duplex.

so now im rifling through dead peoples things.

i stopped by a sale today after work (which i was stoked because usually the sales always start or end after or before i get off work). all that was for sale was a couple pieces of furniture, old lady knick-knacks, and on the back porch a closet’s worth of clothes. capri’s $2. bra’s $1. shorts $3. pant’s $4. is this what the afterlife is like? a porch of your old clothes waiting for someone to scrounge through. i wanted to run out the back door.

pretty.

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 22:22:27 -0400

so i found my senior year prom dress in the closet at my parents house tonight. i put it on and surprisingly it fits. its a little more snug than 9 years ago, but i can get it on. i remember LOVING this dress.

of all the dances of my 4 years of high school, i never once had the same dress as any one else. and would you know it that the one year i buy a fancy dress from a store on park ave. that i absolutely love loVE LOVE, some other bitch that didn’t even go to my school has the same dress!?!?!

also, i think i can smell some remnants of sweaty B.O. on the dress. i probably never washed the it because i never wore it again after that night. it always seemed too special to ever wear again. so it is a little weird/gross to smell that smell of old me, but it makes me nostalgic to think back to old me.

what was i like in high school? what would i tell my 17 year old self today? i can honestly say that the only major regret i would tell myself to DO is to go visit henry in thailand. there’s not much in my life i regret. but that is something that i will never let myself live down.

i dont know if i even thought about myself at 27 back then. i still feel really young sometimes. like i am still 17. but i have a career, a house, a live-in boyfriend. sometimes, i still feel like i need to ask permission. and i just wondered right now, while i just typed that line, will i ever not feel that way? and i answered quickly in my head: maybe if i ever have a child i will not feel like i need to ask permission anymore, because i’ll be the one granting it then.